How deep is your desire?
One thing I have learnt on this path of self-discovery is the more I learn, the less I know. It is like peeling away the layers of an onion, and for the first time I do see the infinite-ness of the All-Knowing.
Awareness is the foundation of knowing. It is the practice of witnessing the self: watching our thoughts, emotions and actions. Almost like watching a movie on the screen of our minds. This is a very difficult endeavor at first, but with the practice of meditation, in time it becomes an easier process. It is a critical piece of the puzzle because without learning how to observe our thoughts and emotions, we remain conditioned to these thoughts and beliefs that keep us stuck in negative patterns of behavior. We cannot make fundamental changes before first knowing what thoughts dominate our minds.
A big part of our human psyche is the fact that we are our own worse critics. Somehow we have lost our sense of humor and are quick to chastise ourselves for the simplest seeming “screw-up”. We mentally berate ourselves with every derogatory name possible. We accept that it is ok to do this to ourselves but similar behavior from anyone else would cause us to become extremely angry.
A very important aspect of witnessing is being non-judgmental. We have been raised to criticize and point fingers rather than find solutions therefore, it will be a tricky habit to overcome, but we must make the effort to remind ourselves each time, “I am not here to judge, merely to observe.”
We make excuses for our destructive thoughts and behavior as this allows us to dismiss them without too much introspection. However, if we cannot develop an open mind to move beyond the habit, we will remain stuck in the habit. Most of the time, we find external reasons to justify why we do things. Again, in being non-judgmental, we can move away from the excuses and on to the healing.
Absorb spiritual information. If we are emptying the mind of negative thoughts, then we must fill it with information reflective of the spirit…. Information is everywhere… it is inscribed upon our hearts…discern your own truths.
At the end of the day it really comes down to:
How deep is your desire…how great your desperation?
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