Pity Party
While growing up, my method of facing life was to internalize my experiences,
more like stuffing everything inside. Eventually, I became a mess of self-hate and self-doubt. I was the Queen of a one woman; walking, talking pity party.
My theme song was - ”no-body knows the troubles, I’ve seen”.
I cried rivers as I reveled in my sense of, my sorrow is so much greater than yours.
I spent years trying to un-learn so many erroneous beliefs about myself.
If I could have realized then, how fanning the flames of my pity party
prevented me from seeing things in a different perspective and that the longer
I stayed in this state of suffering; the more I was cementing the false thinking in my belief system.
Everybody has a story to tell which is as real to them as yours is to you.
My sorrow does not make me special.
When I accepted that, it took away the “personal-ness” and I could look at the beliefs
more as bogus information in my thinking needing to be changed.
I also understood at a very deep level, that I am not my thoughts or my feelings.
I learnt how to separate my sense of self from these feelings and the thoughts that fueled them and to became non-attached to these habitual mental states. Finally, I was free from their vice-like grip.
Suppression does not work. If there is a need for a pity party, honor it…go with it, but try to keep in mind; "I am ready to let this go. I am ready to see things a different way. I am ready to move on."
Once you have released the pent up energy, it is time to leave this party and do not look back.
Embrace the dawning of a new day with your eyes fixed on the infusion of Light
(Information that plant the seeds of transformation).
Focus on being aware of the thoughts you hold that bring you down.
Affirm your new truths and rejoice that the you have made it through the dark night.
In light and love.
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Posted by nerak-am-i at 4/21/2009 11:59 AM 
Categories: Spiritual Growth
Tags: negative thinking spiritula growth faith
Categories: Spiritual Growth
Tags: negative thinking spiritula growth faith
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